Today was the most amazing day of my life. really, it was so unique. things turned out in ways i never imagined. i had decided to put on my makeup before the event, a white skeleton with stitches and two pink bright blushing cheeks. i was the only one with make up before the event. i like that fact. this time, i was purposely trying to gather attention. and my body didn't reject it. some people were looking at me like i was something disgusting, which was funny. BOO! BEWARE THE OMMELETTE.

during the event i hung out with my friend victoria and her friend Jadeen as they painted ppls faces. i just drew cause i didn't want to mess up ppls faces with my lousy painting. it was nice, we talked and the ppl who were being painted were fun as well. they had the book of life movie playing in the background of the class we were in. it got crowded really quickly. i went out here and there to look around the scenery, there were many alters set up. i loved all the flowers. i also got a pizza for vicki and i. it was pretty good, the churros were okay they were just really cold.

as night fell, i went outside, with the song "world without words" by nujabes playing in my earphones. (that song is my theme btw i love it) and put on monarch butterfly wings. i went over to help some kids paint skulls. i met this one kid, Max was his name. he's a 4th grader who was at a high school event for some reason. had no siblings, only child. im assuming his caretaker took him just for fun. anyway, max is the smartest 4th grader i have ever met. the smartest kid ive ever met too. he was talking to me about his passion for math, and how he feels he differs from kids his age. he told me that a lot of kids at his school use internet slang that he doesn't fully understand, and finds it weird. it really shocked me. for a moment, i had forgotten that not all kids are alike. the youth isn't dumb, kids are often more creative than some adults. i guess i had that impression due to how stupid i was as a child. it slowly set in that my childhood is quickly fading from me. and here i was, talking with this child who dreamt of being lawyer. we talked for a moment about our lives and then he asked me what i wanted to be in the future. it took me moment to respond. my answer was quite silly compared to a lawyer. i really enjoyed talking to him, and so did he as he told his caretaker that he wanted to continue talking. eventually, he had to go. max, wherever you may be i wish you the best. keep being unique. keep being you. you will never see this but i wish you the best life. i believe in you.

after some time, vicki and her friends had to go out for a sec. "girl stuff". she said. so as they left to the bathroom i looked around the area and heard a loud voice on a microphone, calling for young people to come onto the stage. this is where i have to take a moment to explain something.

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there is another side to myself that i have neglected to fully discuss, that is which i call "Almost Ommelette". the name almost ommelette comes from a comic character created by an artist i like. in the comic, almost snaps into a altered version of himself. do you see where this going now? its seems as if it is a trace of my d.i.d, who knows. in real life, i am a very anxious person. my past has left as wreck of person. i can hardly talk to people, i just don't want to mess up. however, putting on the face paint, and becoming something else. i gain a vast increase in confidence. i know it seems silly, but its as if my brain uses such face paint as an excuse to get out of everything. to forget. as almost omelette, i feel as if i can do anything. my anxiety feels like a joke. i get such a rush from it. it all feels so odd.

so when the lady on the microphone asked for anyone to get up on stage, it was as if my body had started moving without me. i dropped my water bottle and next thing i know i was behind the lady with the microphone. she looked startled to see me. as if she had just seen a ghost. she asked me what song i wanted to dance to and i said i didn't care. (this was all in spanish) while she got the music ready, i found myself staring into the crowd. on the stage, solo. rather than backing away, my face stayed there. staring right at everyone. i couldn't make out any faces in front of the bright blue light. i don't remember what song or genre was playing. but it was in spanish. all i can remember from then is dancing violently and screaming. as i waved my butterfly wings. one person got up and joined me. we did an accidental synchronized move. i was dancing as well as what seemed like moshing. that was the moment. the moment i stopped worrying. the moment everything that hurt me went away. when i truly didn't care. when i forgot, even if it was just for a little bit. it was my chance to express myself. no matter how crazy i may have looked. i was fully almost ommelette, yet fully alexei n. at the same time. it was a feeling i had never experienced before. it was amazing.

for my "contribution" i was given a reusable water bottle. cool i guess. i was instantly burnt out right afterwards, as i snapped right back into alexei. to my horror, victoria had been watching my ahem..."act" the entire time. i was rlly embarassed at first but later i was cool with it. she gave jadeen and i a ride back home. well, 7 eleven in my case.

i needed a victory slurpee.

Yours truly,

Almost Omelette.